What is it? You tell me? (17)

I don't understand why we live for a world that do not accept our beliefs or accept our dreams. I can't figure out what the world's truly means. I only understand the mission that is at hand. It came to me in a dream. I chose to be accepted by God and I'm only on his team. I follow God like y'all follow people on twitter, and I don't need a follow back, He's the leader. I added God in my life like facebook. Believe me, He has the right book. What do you know about Roman, and I'm not talking about noodles. So picture this on paper and I don't mean doodle. Now pay attention because I'm serious, no joking. I look a little older, so I know I must got wiser. Like  I asked you, What is it? Please, tell me?

Growth in My Eyes (16)

From age one to age twenty I've encountered plenty. Learning to crawl, and learning to stand on my own two feet never undefeated. Seeing new faces and different smiles all that I had greeted.
Facing new situations, sometimes frighten other times delighted; searching quest and daring to see the rest. Having choices wrong and right. I know these things, but wondering minds never stay the same.
Knowing my mistakes and now I'm growing and my dreams are not easy to take.
But I have the keys to my own destiny and with the grace of God I will make it finally.

Myself (15)

My skin is delicate, not black as oil. Like light brown pecans that aren't spoiled.
My soul is uplifting heartbroken pieces of God's little gift and my heart sometimes like to shift.
My smile is bright as the stars get at night, so please don't be afraid just sit back and enjoy tonight.
 I can read people's mind like a book, I have all the right tricks that's why I took a look.
My mood swings are secrets and often dangerous, my looks are courageous. I understand how my body would be pleasure for the lookers, but never for the taken. 
My curves are young and lovely and my bone structures are... well also lovely. Sleep peacefully at night for I have to rest. These are a few things that catch people's eyes the best. As I walk by never asking only wondering why.
Just know that I am somebody, do you even have to ask "why?"

**Unknown** (14)

My emotions search for my dreams. My voice is a thousand little girl’s scream. There’s a long walk ahead, take my time. I know I'm scared. Face the facts, face the reality, and face the pain.  I can get a little sassy, but I’ll never complain. Never stop! For what, there’s nothing behind you but dust. But take God's advice, that’s a must. Blue skies and summer days; birds chirping, singing and even giving praise. Dark nights and star twinkles, so far the night is young as I, no wrinkles.  These are days that pass most people by. These are the days that make must people cry. These are the natural causes of the universe. Many may question and many may wonder, but they have no trust. Like a child’s first lollipop and that first lick, it amazing how simple childhood memories can be missed. Just as precious as that first ball we kicked. What about the unknown? I think more of it as the danger zone. It has its advantages, like being curious and walking into the mystery and getting covered in bandages.  We get hurt and hurt but that doesn’t stop us. Runs in the mud covered in dirt. Tricky move but it does hurt. Now time has passed and the day turned into night and I'll return when the sun makes it light.

At a Stand Still (12)

Misunderstood.

I’m confused! 

I stand used.

Never loved from the outside world, they will always be looking for me. This one  missing girl.

I cannot wait until faith touches my heart and takes its place.

Wanting to be loved by one, excepting by one, and unshared by one’s feelings.

I thought I needed the touch, needed to be healed, needed the feel, and needed to be held.

I was very much wrong. Now I don’t know where my heart’s gone.

Taking the misleading path of that I’ve lost, and knowing love from lust because my love was lost.

No longer caring until I feel right. Somebody come sit with me, I want to cherish this night.

This is my mind. Let's go to the moon, but see, you're playing games. All you want is a room.

Well pardon me, I don't mean to be rude! Sorry if my words come off cruel. I don't want to be misunderstood, confused, or wrongly used. 

Stepping out on faith, so I may be used by the only person that can sooth... my spirit. I just know I've found my true deliverance.

Misleading (11)

When trusting the world, putting your trust in the world, not knowing if trusting is right, but believing your trust is real. When trusting man, putting your trust in man, not knowing if trusting man is right, but believing your trust is real. When you see someone for the first time? Who is to say if it’s true love or just a simple crush?
Let's face it sometimes we do rush. Question? Do you not feel for the person? I do like that one song by Usher. You know the one… “She got it bad” The song meant a lot because I know I got it bad.
When will you know if the lust has turned into a crush and that crush into love? I guess when that person says that one word "love".
But everything is not so easy; I must admit I’ve been easy.
When you get to know a person well enough, you don’t want to rush… but you brace them with your body and they brace yours in return.
Thinking in my head… "Did I take a wrong turn?"
Just the satisfaction of getting what they wanted, the pass is hard and hunted.
You were in love but their love was too late.
Now you’re alone at the table starring at your dinner plate. Time is ticking, moving without me no helping hand. You stand still while man again knowing it was only a one-night stand.
You only stand still when man is moving, thinking he’ll embrace you, but he kept it moving.  Once more to ease his guilt and your shame.
What you want fame from a name. In public, in existence to him, you wonder why. Knowing your place with man was a lie.